第22章 哭泣

    秦    淮    如    家    里    。    看    着    喝    了    一    碗    还    嚷    着    饿    的    儿    子    ，    秦    淮    如    有    些    发    愁    。    都    说    半    大    小    子    吃    死    老    子    ，    如    今    儿    子    正    是    长    身    体    的    时    候    ，    营    养    必    须    跟    得    上    。    而    家    里    又    多    了    个    吃    白    饭    ，    就    我    那    点    工    资    哪    够    啊    ，    要    不    是    前    几    天    一    大    爷    给    送    来    了    点    粮    食    ，    只    怕    现    在    就    要    揭    不    开    锅    了    。

    现    如    今    ，    秦    淮    如    已    经    对    何    雨    柱    死    心    了    ，    根    本    就    不    可    能    从    何    雨    柱    那    儿    得    到    啥    好    处    。    面    对    捉    襟    见    肘    的    现    状    ，    秦    淮    如    仔    细    考    量    着    许    大    茂    的    提    议    ，    认    为    这    份    交    易    很    好    。    一    来    少    了    一    个    吃    白    饭    的    ，    家    里    能    减    少    一    笔    开    支    ；    二    来    许    大    茂    那    边    还    能    收    到    不    少    好    处    。    主    要    是    许    大    茂    给    的    好    处    让    秦    淮    如    心    动    不    易    。

    不    过    ，    这    事    得    仔    细    琢    磨    ，    可    不    能    让    许    大    茂    反    悔    了    ，    得    做    得    板    上    钉    钉    才    行    。

    这    几    天    ，    秦    京    茹    也    有    些    心    思    不    宁    ，    整    日    里    浑    浑    噩    噩    的    。    前    阵    子    回    家    ，    自    家    父    母    见    其    空    着    手    回    来    ，    觉    得    她    根    本    就    嫁    不    进    城    里    ，    便    背    着    秦    京    茹    许    下    一    门    亲    事    ，    还    收    了    订    金    。    秦    京    茹    察    觉    到    端    倪    ，    连    夜    跑    来    了    四    合    院    ，    想    找    何    雨    柱    说    说    心    里    话    ，    觉    得    上    次    相    见    两    人    谈    得    甚    欢    ，    何    雨    柱    心    里    该    有    她    ，    想    谈    谈    婚    事    ，    然    而    这    几    天    却    连    何    雨    柱    的    面    都    没    碰    着    。

    寄    居    在    姐    姐    家    里    ，    虽    然    贾    张    氏    没    啥    说    狠    话    ，    可    也    受    了    不    少    白    眼    ，    秦    京    茹    住    的    很    不    舒    服    。

    这    天    ，    何    雨    柱    早    早    下    了    班    ，    刚    进    到    院    子    就    碰    见    了    苦    着    脸    出    门    的    秦    京    茹    。

    “    咋    的    啦    ！    怎    么    愁    眉    苦    脸    的    ，    你    姐    的    婆    婆    又    说    你    了    ？    ”    何    雨    柱    问    道    。

    瞧    见    了    心    上    人    ，    心    里    的    委    屈    再    也    压    不    住    了    。    秦    京    茹    一    把    扑    进    何    雨    柱    的    怀    里    呜    咽    起    来    。    这    可    把    何    雨    柱    吓    坏    了    ，    这    可    不    是    后    世    ，    大    街    上    搂    搂    抱    抱    不    会    说    啥    ，    搁    这    个    时    代    ，    两    个    未    婚    男    女    抱    在    一    起    ，    被    人    瞧    见    了    ，    虽    不    会    浸    猪    笼    ，    也    是    会    被    人    说    三    道    四    的    。

    更    重    要    的    是    何    雨    柱    就    会    被    秦    京    茹    绑    住    了    ，    不    管    娶    不    娶    她    ，    这    名    声    算    是    毁    了    ，    那    还    能    娶    上    更    好    的    女    人    呢    。

    而    且    ，    何    雨    柱    还    未    想    好    要    不    要    娶    秦    京    茹    呢    ，    哪    能    就    这    般    与    漂    亮    妹    子    绝    缘    。    所    以    ，    何    雨    柱    一    把    推    开    秦    京    茹    ，    抬    高    了    声    度    ：    “    干    什    么    ，    这    人    多    眼    杂    的    。    ”

    小    馆    子    里    ，    何    雨    柱    给    秦    京    茹    开    了    瓶    果    汁    ，    问    道    ：    “    说    说    吧    ，    有    啥    苦    水    对    你    柱    子    哥    倒    出    来    吧    ！    ”

    “    服    务    员    ，    来    瓶    酒    ！    ”

    秦    京    茹    要    了    瓶    酒    ，    一    杯    下    肚    ，    直    觉    从    上    到    下    被    火    辣    侵    夺    ，    却    也    舒    坦    。

    “    柱    子    哥    ！    我    家    里    给    我    在    老    家    说    了    门    亲    事    ，    可    我    一    点    也    不    愿    意    。    这    不    ，    我    就    连    夜    跑    了    回    来    。    ”

    “    柱    子    哥    ，    我    喜    欢    你    ，    我    嫁    给    你    好    不    好    ！    我    保    证    ，    我    一    定    听    你    话    。    ”    两    杯    白    酒    下    肚    ，    秦    京    茹    醉    眼    惺    忪    ，    大    声    表    白    。

    何    雨    柱    有    些    纳    闷    ，    不    明    白    前    段    时    间    还    矜    持    的    秦    京    茹    咋    转    变    得    这    么    快    ！    就    算    不    愿    回    老    家    结    婚    也    不    至    于    这    般    上    赶    着    啊    ！    这    不    是    自    降    身    份    了    嘛    。

    对    于    秦    京    茹    的    直    接    ，    何    雨    柱    觉    得    很    无    奈    。    打    从    来    到    这    个    世    界    起    ，    何    雨    柱    就    不    打    算    守    着    一    个    人    过    日    子    ，    所    以    ，    对    于    秦    京    茹    的    心    意    何    雨    柱    就    只    能    辜    负    了    。

    是    时    候    展    现    海    王    的    信    条    了    。

    “    京    茹    ，    你    的    心    意    我    明    白    ，    我    很    感    动    ，    但    我    不    能    接    受    ！    ”    何    雨    柱    沉    重    的    说    道    。

    “    为    什    么    ？    ”    秦    京    茹    不    明    白    ，    不    理    解    何    雨    柱    为    什    么    拒    绝    。

    “    是    我    不    够    好    看    ？    还    是    我    比    较    笨    ？    还    是    我    是    个    乡    下    女    人    ？    还    是    你    有    了    看    上    的    人    ？    ”

    何    雨    柱    扶    额    摇    头    ，    这    都    哪    跟    哪    啊    ，    说    道    ：    “    都    不    是    。    ”

    泪    水    模    糊    了    视    野    ，    秦    京    茹    万    念    俱    灰    ，    脱    离    农    村    过    城    里    人    生    活    的    最    后    一    丝    希    望    破    灭    了    。

    何    雨    柱    不    愿    娶    我    ，    堂    姐    家    有    那    恶    婆    婆    在    我    也    住    不    了    ，    难    道    我    就    真    的    只    能    嫁    给    乡    下    汉    子    ，    过    着    面    朝    黄    土    背    朝    天    点    苦    日    子    嘛    ！    ？

    杂    绪    浮    沉    ，    秦    京    茹    越    想    越    觉    得    未    来    充    满    了    黑    暗    ，    泪    水    止    不    住    地    狂    泄    ，    一    杯    杯    灌    酒    ，    企    图    通    过    酒    精    麻    痹    自    己    。

    女    人    一    杯    接    一    杯    ，    痛    哭    流    泪    ，    早    就    成    了    饭    馆    的    焦    点    所    在    。    何    雨    柱    只    觉    得    头    皮    发    麻    ，    醉    酒    的    女    人    可    真    麻    烦    ，    赶    紧    结    账    带    着    秦    京    茹    离    开    。

    街    头    ，    何    雨    柱    背    着    秦    京    茹    在    昏    黄    的    路    灯    下    前    行    ，    说    道    ：    “    京    茹    啊    ，    我    知    道    呢    担    忧    的    是    什    么    ！    你    想    嫁    给    我    不    就    是    为    了    生    活    在    城    里    嘛    ！    当    然    了    ，    你    或    许    对    我    是    有    几    分    好    感    。    可    结    婚    是    一    辈    子    的    事    ，    不    能    因    为    想    在    城    里    生    活    就    随    便    做    出    决    定    。    ”

    “    这    样    吧    ！    我    先    帮    你    找    个    工    作    ，    让    你    有    在    城    里    生    活    的    经    济    基    础    。    你    要    是    再    你    姐    家    住    的    不    开    心    ，    我    那    还    空    着    一    间    房    可    以    给    你    住    一    段    时    间    。    等    你    仔    细    想    清    楚    了    ，    再    考    虑    要    不    要    嫁    给    我    ！    ”

    “    秦    京    茹    ，    你    听    到    没    ？    ”

    托    托    背    上    爬    着    的    小    妞    ，    何    雨    柱    问    道    。

    “    听    着    呢    。    。    。    你    怎    么    。    老    提    我    姐    。    。    工    作    。    。    思    考    。    。    。    嫁    人    。    住    房    子    。    ”    秦    京    茹    大    着    舌    头    嘟    囔    道    。

    还    行    ，    有    回    应    就    代    表    还    有    意    识    。

    刚    到    四    合    院    附    近    ，    就    瞧    见    一    个    人    影    拖    着    一    个    大    口    袋    前    行    。    何    雨    柱    感    到    几    分    诧    异    ，    这    大    晚    上    的    带    着    一    大    口    袋    ，    莫    不    是    小    偷    吧    ！    ！

    “    前    面    的    人    给    我    站    住    ！    ”    何    雨    柱    大    声    喊    道    ，    一    边    迈    开    大    步    子    跑    过    去    。

    这    小    偷    也    不    慌    ，    反    倒    煞    有    其    事    地    循    着    声    音    看    过    来    。    等    到    何    雨    柱    到    近    前    ，    才    发    现    是    许    大    茂    媳    妇    娄    晓    娥    ，    忍    不    住    笑    道    ：    “    我    当    是    谁    啊    ，    原    来    是    你    娄    晓    娥    啊    ！    大    晚    上    拖    个    袋    子    鬼    鬼    祟    祟    的    ，    我    还    以    为    是    小    偷    呢    ？    ”

    瞧    着    是    经    常    埋    汰    自    己    的    何    雨    柱    ，    娄    晓    娥    没    好    气    地    说    道    ：    “    呸    ！    瞎    了    你    的    狗    眼    ，    狗    嘴    里    吐    不    出    象    牙    来    ！    ”

    “    等    等    ，    你    脚    上    的    鞋    怎    么    这    么    眼    熟    呢    ？    这    不    是    我    买    给    老    太    太    的    吗    ？    怎    么    就    到    你    脚    上    了    ？    ”

    何    雨    柱    一    乐    ，    这    娄    晓    娥    眼    可    真    尖    啊    ，    这    么    暗    的    灯    光    都    能    看    出    这    是    她    买    的    鞋    。    真    不    愧    是    资    本    家    的    女    儿    。

    “    老    太    太    给    我    的    ，    你    管    得    着    吗    ！    ？    ”

    何    雨    柱    回    敬    一    句    ，    踢    踢    地    上    的    袋    子    发    出    金    银    碰    撞    的    声    音    。    看    来    这    是    娄    家    察    觉    到    什    么    ，    打    算    想    藏    起    来    一    部    分    财    务    啊    ！    可    惜    啊    ，    有    许    大    茂    在    ，    这    一    切    都    是    徒    劳    ，    反    而    会    成    为    他    往    上    爬    的    功    绩    。

    娄    晓    娥    懒    得    跟    何    雨    柱    斗    嘴    ，    默    默    地    拽    着    一    口    袋    金    银    珠    宝    龟    速    前    进    。

    最    后    还    是    何    雨    柱    看    不    过    眼    ，    念    着    脚    底    下    这    双    鞋    子    好    处    ，    帮    了    把    手    把    这    袋    子    抬    回    了    许    大    茂    家    。

    真    就    帮    了    一    把    手    ，    另    一    只    手    还    托    着    迷    糊    了    过    去    的    秦    京    茹    。